Numb

And I'll be alright
And I'll love again
And the wounds will mend
I'm bruised but not broken
And the pain will fade
I'll get back on my feet
It's not the end of me
My heart is still open, I'm
Bruised but not broken
- "Bruised but Not Broken" -- Joss Stone

The lyrics to that song are really speaking to me today.I just got word that a good friend of mine lost her baby yesterday. I am sitting here numb. Numb and dumbfounded. I feel so much pain in my heart for her. She is my "sister in struggle", as she and I have similar challenges. When I found out she was pg, I wanted to pump my fist in the air. She gave me so much hope and encouragement...that if it happened for her, it could happen for me. I know she and her husband were going to be dynamic parents. That child was loved by so many people he never knew. I know God has a purpose and plan for everything...so, as she said, God needed him more. That doesn't ever take away the pain, but I am praying that she will be ok...and that she knows that she's loved...by God and her friends and family. If you are reading and believe in the power of prayer, please pray for my friend...even though you don't know her, no one deserves to go through this kind of pain.

Today is CD28...which means any day now, we're on the road. Going into this cycle with this news is really scary. Part of me just doesn't want to move. But I have to believe that God does have a purpose for this. And whatever that is, we have to be open to it.